It's hard moving on with a heavy heart

Friend- a person you know well and regard with affection and trust



Affection and trust. The key word for me? Trust.




It’s so important that everyone has at least one friend they trust and can share anything with. One of the hardest things to do is to trust. That’s why you should never let go of that friend once you find that you can trust them. But what if they break that trust? Another one of the hardest things to do is forgive them. You feel humiliated, betrayed, lied to. Because it hurts to watch someone lie to you, believing every word of it, and then finding out that they have no problem risking your friendship. But you just have to ask yourself, how much does this friendship mean to me?




You know, maybe it’s my fault. I tried to tell you how I felt without saying too much; I just thought I didn’t have to. We both knew from the start that this would happen, but you denied it. Was it just to make me feel better? Well, I’m so sorry, because it didn’t. Truth is, it hurt way more than I thought it would. And you noticed. You say you feel like a horrible friend? I’m not going to say that you should, but I’ll act like everything’s okay, even though it kills me. Not because you’re my friend, but because I’m yours.


You said you’d never do it. It was harmless and it didn’t mean anything, right? I didn’t believe you, but I wanted to. It still amazes me that you could sit beside me and let me watch you fall into it. No, not fall, but jump. Yeah, it was you. You knew what you were getting yourself into. We all did. So you can stop apologizing, because I’ve already forgiven you. Not because you’re my friend, but because I’m yours.


I’m your friend. I promised you that I always would be, and that I would love you no matter what happened. And you can do what you want, because that’s your decision. I can’t stop you, and I have no interest in stopping you. I understand that you just want to have a good time. And he does too. I’ve decided that I’d rather be alone if he only wanted one thing from me. But that was my decision, not yours. So I’ll let you do that. But the problem is, I can’t stay out of this. As much as I want to leave you, let you make your own mistakes, and just wait to say “I told you so,” I could never do that. Because I still have to look out for my best friend. And it’s not because you’re my friend, but because I’m yours.