Stopping the lie

I’m waiting. Waiting for the day when I stop believing this lie.
I’m waiting. Waiting for the day when you stop lying to me.
But I won’t count on it.


The first step to stopping a lie: stop listening to it.


I’ve given you so many chances to prove yourself
And you’ve let me down every time.
I just want you too much.


The second step to stopping a lie: stop dwelling on it.


Should I go along with it and act like everything’s okay?
Should I act like I want nothing to do with you?
Should I not reply at all?

The answer to the last question: yes.

I know you won’t come after me if I don’t acknowledge you.
But why am I hesitating? I know why.
Because honestly, I know it’s wrong, but I can’t let go.


The third step to stopping a lie: replace it with the truth.


You’re mean. You don’t care. And you won’t change.
It’s taken forever for that to sink in.
Not because it’s not obvious, but because I don’t want to believe it.

I’m strong. I’m not your type. And you’re not mine.
There comes a time when you realize that you can’t always get what you want.
I tried to make it happen, but failed every time. So it’s not my place anymore.

Why was it so hard to forget you? I know why.
Because I wasn’t trying.
That ends today.


The wait: difficult, but better than the consequences I have faced.


I can’t look at you and say you mean nothing.
You used to mean everything to me.
But I mean nothing to you.

I still care.
I just hope that one day you can make better decisions.
I want the absolute best for you.


The conclusion: we go our separate ways, and I’m happy.


I can’t wait until that day comes.
I can’t wait until I can look you in the eye and say “I don’t want you.”
On that day, I’ll know it was worth it. I’ll know I deserve better.


"You can't always get what you want

But if you try sometimes, well you might find
You get what you need "

-The Rolling Stones

It's hard moving on with a heavy heart

Friend- a person you know well and regard with affection and trust



Affection and trust. The key word for me? Trust.




It’s so important that everyone has at least one friend they trust and can share anything with. One of the hardest things to do is to trust. That’s why you should never let go of that friend once you find that you can trust them. But what if they break that trust? Another one of the hardest things to do is forgive them. You feel humiliated, betrayed, lied to. Because it hurts to watch someone lie to you, believing every word of it, and then finding out that they have no problem risking your friendship. But you just have to ask yourself, how much does this friendship mean to me?




You know, maybe it’s my fault. I tried to tell you how I felt without saying too much; I just thought I didn’t have to. We both knew from the start that this would happen, but you denied it. Was it just to make me feel better? Well, I’m so sorry, because it didn’t. Truth is, it hurt way more than I thought it would. And you noticed. You say you feel like a horrible friend? I’m not going to say that you should, but I’ll act like everything’s okay, even though it kills me. Not because you’re my friend, but because I’m yours.


You said you’d never do it. It was harmless and it didn’t mean anything, right? I didn’t believe you, but I wanted to. It still amazes me that you could sit beside me and let me watch you fall into it. No, not fall, but jump. Yeah, it was you. You knew what you were getting yourself into. We all did. So you can stop apologizing, because I’ve already forgiven you. Not because you’re my friend, but because I’m yours.


I’m your friend. I promised you that I always would be, and that I would love you no matter what happened. And you can do what you want, because that’s your decision. I can’t stop you, and I have no interest in stopping you. I understand that you just want to have a good time. And he does too. I’ve decided that I’d rather be alone if he only wanted one thing from me. But that was my decision, not yours. So I’ll let you do that. But the problem is, I can’t stay out of this. As much as I want to leave you, let you make your own mistakes, and just wait to say “I told you so,” I could never do that. Because I still have to look out for my best friend. And it’s not because you’re my friend, but because I’m yours.