Forget You (for Abigale)

Who is this kid? And where did he come from?

It doesn't matter, I fell for you.
You just got me right where you wanted me.
And honestly, it wasn't hard to do.

But next time, I'll be more careful.
I'll wear my game face so you won't see me blush.
And I'll just turn and run away,
The next time I start to trust.

Because really? Who do you think you are?
Giving and taking away?
I'll admit it was fun while it lasted,
But now you get to watch me walk away.

That's what I get for accepting to play
In your immature, childish games.
I picked you because I thought you were different.
Turns out, you were the same.

Thanks for showing me I was wrong.
I've wasted enough of my time.
Because the moment you pretended like you didn't want me
Was right where I drew the line.

I'm shaking my head and laughing
At every stupid memory.
Forgetting you won't be hard,
But forgetting me won't be easy.

So thanks for helping me prove to myself
That I really can be strong.
I'm picking myself off the floor
And I'm finally moving on.

Rmember those days?

My days are great because I've been spending them with you
Remember all the crazy things we did when there was nothing to do?
And everyone stared, but we kept dancing to the same old song
'Cause we didn't care. And out in the street laughing
As loud as we possibly could. Unaware of all the other people

Sha lalala lalala lalala
Sha lalala lalala

Do you remember when we called the radio
And we asked to hear a song that we both loved?
And we danced all around the living room

Now looking back, I see that those were the days
Don't worry about a thing, because everything's okay
And I have you

Sha lalala lalala lalala
Sha lalala lalala

I think Summer was the best time I've ever spent in my life
Remember walking down to the park for the Fourth of July?
And we grabbed our lawn chairs and sat in the front yard
Looking up at the sky and the stars

Sha lalala lalala lalala
Sha lalala lalala
Sha lalala lalala

It's easier said than done

Sometimes, it's easier said than done. And I'm one of those people who can be fooled easily because I like to find the good in a bad situation. I forgive and forget, even if it hurts. And sometimes I wish I was just a little more stubborn than that.

I was nothing to you. And I was okay with that, because you were nothing to me, until you started to show an interest. And yes, I fell face first chasing after you. I had no idea how you were until you hurt me for the very first time. After that, I swore I wouldn't fall anymore. That was easier said than done. You were nice to me, and you were the most beautiful thing to me. And what was I? Well, I was just another girl.

You came back, after I picked myself up. And I fell, again, because I thought it was different. We all go after something we can't have, just to make it ours. That's how it was with you. And you knew everything to say to me, didn't you? Well you should've by then, because you'd had enough experience. But then you left, again. And I wanted to hate you; I wanted nothing to do with you. But when you made me feel even a little bit special, the same old feelings came back again.

Two years passed by and I still haven't learned how to handle you. I still look at you the way I did the first time I liked you. And you still know how to make me smile. But this, right now, is great. We're nothing, just friends, and that's okay with me. Because I can talk to you without worrying that you'll leave if something better comes along. I can stand to look at you, without hurting. But it doesn't matter what you do; there will always be something there. And I know so many other girls feel the same about you. They want to be 'the one' for you. So what makes me different? Nothing. Absolutely nothing.

It's your decision. You do what you want with your life. You don't belong to anybody, but that won't change the way I've felt about you, as a friend. You're an amazing person, and I believe that you can, and will do anything you want to do. Maybe this is what makes you different from everybody else. I don't know what it is, but there's something about you. And I want to walk away when you leave me, without saying anything. But that's easier said than done.

Trying Something New

Where was the rock inside of me
When I was left pacing anxiously?
Can't seem to keep my feet on the ground

I'm trying to run before I can walk
And I've learned that just doesn't work
When you try to get ahead of yourself

All the questions I kept asking
Weren't meant for you; they were meant for me
I guess that's why no one answered

Where do I go now?
It's my decision
What if I fall down
And you're not there?
There's a part of me that's pushing forward
But I'm on my own, and I'm scared

Now everything seems new to me
And I wish more than anything
That I could go back and start all over

I watch them dancing beautifully
And I'm awestruck, just staring
I'm trapped inside a dreamer's body

What about those years
That I have wasted?
Is this just a trick
My heart's playing on me?
What if I'm just a hopeless dreamer?
Or what if it's real?

I can't tell what's right from wrong
Don't have you. Now I'm alone
And my whole world is spinning faster

Where do I go now?
It's my decision
What if I fall down?
I know it's bound to happen
There's a part of me that's pushing forward
But I'm scared. I'm scared.

Just go ahead and leave

Thanks for nothing ‘cause you threw it all away
It’s never been my job, never been my place
But I did it anyway, only for your sake
And what did you do? You pushed me away
So don’t tell me that you’re sorry
I’ve heard it a million times
And it’s not like I can’t see
What’s right in front of my eyes
I shouldn’t have to pull every detail out of you
It should just be something you always want to do
Is it even worth it? I’m starting to think again
Because I can try all I want, but I know I’ll never win
You know what? Just forget it.
It’s your turn to come after me
I’ll see just how much you care, after I leave
Hello? You still there? Because it’s been all day
I guess I know the answer now, so I’m not going to stay
And just try to come back one day and ask me where I’ve been
I’ll simply ask you the same question
Stare you down, and shake my head
Where were YOU all this time?
Don’t give me any excuses. I’m done.
So pick yourself up off the floor and look me in the eyes
Because you just look pathetic from my point of view
I’m glad that I’ve moved on. Now I don’t have to blame myself
Now that I see clearly, my problem was always you