What Holds Us Back

So, I recently started going to this program just for the high school students every Wednesday night. It’s called Young Life, and it’s ah-ma-zing! Basically what we do is meet and talk to friends for a few minutes, and then go inside our building and sing, play games, and talk about Jesus. And when that’s over, we go to Chick-Fil-A to eat. There’ve only been two meetings so far, and they’ve been the highlight of my week. Young Life reminds me that there are so many amazing people right in my own school.



Young Life has been my great escape for the past two weeks, because they’ve been unusually stressful. There’s not really a specific reason, but it’s the same old thing that holds me back. We all have some type of obstacle in our lives that keep us from living a close-to-careless life. My question for you is what holds you back? How long has this been a problem?


There are actually many things for me, and sometimes I have to stop and tell myself I’m only fourteen. It shouldn’t be normal to stress about the same things all the time. I have fears. I fear rejection. I’m always trying to please someone else over myself, and it can be good, but not when it reaches a certain extreme. I’m sensitive and I hate it. But what can you do?


Well, God hears us if we decide to give him all of our fears. I ask Him to help me with something new every day. Sometimes I wonder if He’s getting annoyed with me, but then I remember that this is exactly what Jesus wants me to do. He wants to be my best friend; He wants to be the one I want to share everything with. And that’s exactly what I do. Sometimes what I want doesn’t happen, but nobody said I’d get everything I want. And even though it’s frustrating, something great usually happens to make up for it.


So this blog is just for me to say that I have problems like everybody else, and I’m not happy with them, but I have so many reasons to be grateful. I’m too sensitive, I’m too hard on myself, but every Wednesday night is a reminder from God that I am loved. And so are you.